Beginning anew

The first part of the latest attempt.

who are we
why are we here
what is our purpose? or what is my purpose
Where have we come from and where will we go from here?

timeless questions of undeniable import. Uniformly and actively frowned upon: the question and the asker both. Why?

understanding the meaning underlying our existence , why is that not ok?
i have been thinking on the possible reasons, speculating on the answers

I feel as though with all the books i have read the contempaltion i have done i am bursting to put down my latest thoughts and make room for new one.

Analysis comes later!

Would like to write a book where i can postulate on why things are the way they are in the world today
why does nothing work, why does nothing satisfy the soul. Why are children disillusioned, why are adults killing one another all over the planet? Is this all that our so called evolution has led to or are we just doing something very wrong?
Our we following the wrong road map?

Anyways more of that later

My fascination has been with understanding something of our 'wujood' in the context of what the religions teach us. Now thats a minefield right there, because we have to assume that religions have the right insight to begin with...yes thats true but we need a starting point , always remembering that we have the opt out option at all times.

I believe firmly that the creator of so much does not care whether we do hijaab or naqaab or even any of the 5 pillars, who are we to assume such importance?
in fact why do we assume we are so important? on what basis? none whatsoever. our self assumed sense of importance is likely just a projection of someone else's egocentricity.Egocentrics have very firm opinions and are very believable, and many religious 'managers' are hugely ego maniacal.... the standard issue' my way or the highway types'.

Unfortunately over years and centuries we have individually and as communities taken their viewpoints to be our filter thru which we perceive reality. So then what i one to do?

should one turn to religion. I don't know if it is the right thing to do or not but i will say that i did. I turned to it not with the feeling of desperation , but in the spirit of inquiry. I read random pieces of my own and other religions. Rarely if ever did i find a reference to any for of coercion. Rather most seem to encourage self driven inquiry. the oft quoted first revealed ayat/word in Islam is 'Read'

clearly we are literally being told to go out and 'educate' ourselves any way we deem appropriate in order to understand ourselves better.

So with this express instruction and the sanction to read i went out there and i read (see for the lists of material i plowed through)

i had many 'duh ' moments and several 'aha' moments, epiphanies too probably. But I'll tell you this, when one is in the middle of one one rarely realizes that one is having one. Only later do get a vague sense of having some sense of the answers.